I’ve been watching videos about autism.
I’ve got a bunch of the signs, especially if you consider the difference in signs for women.
But also, I often feel like I’m spending so much time on what I should do, I never get to do what I want to do. One component is capitalism, of course, stealing away a lot of my time. Another one is house and it being too much for me to do on my own.
But I’m continuously turning away from new interests. Because there isn’t enough time. I miss my old interests, like ancient history, languages and anthropology. But I somehow pre-miss new interests, all the things I cannot pursue because there’s never enough time. Special-interests?
Autistic burnout recovery plan sounds…lovely. https://neurodivergentinsights.com/autistic-burnout-recovery/
Less demands, more rest, more investment in self-care, etc. Sounds wonderful.
It might be time to reduce cooking…I seem to do that every year or two, where I go through an extended period where I do minimal cooking, rely on prepared frozen meals or cook the same thing over and over (usually baked chicken and veggies).
I like the idea of cutting back on some of my less-helpful social events…they were intended to help me fit in when I moved up here, but it hasn’t gone that way and some of those gatherings just remind me that these don’t feel like real friends…a certain someone was out of town for two weeks and social gatherings evaporated in his absence, and ..it was nice. I got more stuff done working at my own pace, my place is cleaner, I got more time to stretch and exercise, it was good. But now he’s back and friday night we went inside and gathered in a dark room so people could be condescending at me and …it was NOT good. And somehow nobody picked up on it when I suggested throwing myself into the middle of the lake so I didn’t have to continue this discussion anymore.
Anyway. time off this weekend, but only to go visit mom. which means 6 hours of driving with Loki in the car, then visiting with mom, helping her with stuff and spending time with her friends, and we get to tackle the storage unit. she needs help with that, it’s not really optional. There’ll be some quiet time, but honestly she’s lonely and gets plenty of quiet time, and I don’t.
I might take another long weekend soon, just for me. Especially once spring has properly sprung and there starts to be green. I need some green.
