I was just thinking about it again and it finally clicked over on the “why”.<\/p>\n\n\n\n
Normally, when “everything is wrong”, it’s me.<\/em>. it’s my own brain, doing something unpleasant, so I withdraw so I can moderate my own feelings and keep from doing anything irrevocable to my regular life.<\/p>\n\n\n\n But now, now it’s not me. It’s the world. It’s the world gone wrong. It’s the orange menace, it’s other<\/em> countries electing to go backwards instead of forwards, it’s climate change, it’s not just me<\/em>. <\/p>\n\n\n\n And my normal coping methods don’t work for that. Normally I batten down the hatches, withdraw, and once my own brain has calmed down, I come out. Like the groundhog, I test the weather, see if it feels okay, and if so, I come out. But now…now that doesn’t work. Can’t Resist from my burrow. Can’t build community from my nest. Can’t plan ahead for what bad things are coming next if I’m staying…away<\/em>.<\/p>\n\n\n\n I’m not equipped, and my coping mechanisms are not adequate. \ud83d\ude41<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" I was just thinking about it again and it finally clicked over on the “why”. Normally, when “everything is wrong”, it’s me.. it’s my own brain, doing something unpleasant, so I withdraw so I can moderate my own feelings and keep from doing anything irrevocable to my regular life. But now, now it’s not me. […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":3,"featured_media":456,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-322","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-uncategorized","has-thumbnail"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/sectorzz9.space\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/322","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/sectorzz9.space\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/sectorzz9.space\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sectorzz9.space\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/3"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sectorzz9.space\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=322"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/sectorzz9.space\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/322\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":498,"href":"https:\/\/sectorzz9.space\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/322\/revisions\/498"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sectorzz9.space\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/media\/456"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/sectorzz9.space\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=322"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sectorzz9.space\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=322"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/sectorzz9.space\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=322"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}